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I should have been there for you . But i wasn’t.. I should have defended you but i didnt.. . I dont know why the fuck i didnt… i just didnt… i wanted to ~ I know that much but i dont know what the I am doing anymore . I give such wimpy excuses but i dont even know why.. If i were to have just been straight forward none of this could have happened and all of this could have been avoided .. What i said vs what i wanted to say was like completely different . I just kind of let things happen which is not good at all. I know there is a lot of stuff going through my mind at the moment but i dont let anything that is actually on my

I have to keep going I have to move forward I can't look back I can't let myself go again I make myself sick when i think about what I've done How can i forgive myself? How can i love myself? How can anyone love me..

Motionless Empy Dead You Soul Is Cold . Those Words You Never Said .. You Feel So Scared You Are All Curled Up But No One Ever Cared You Touch Those Wounds They Bleed Without Stop Blurred Eyes, You See Two Moons You Begin To cry Then You Feel numb As You Said Goodbye.